"Unless I saw blood or had to climb a tall ladder, then I'd just faint," he says, then shakes his head. What had sounded like a self depreciating joke in his head had come out too heavy in the dark. He hadn't meant to argue.

"I'm just... scared. I hope nothing happens. But even if it doesn't." He stops to yawn, rubbing his eyes with his fist. "I just don't want to lose you. Any of you."