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sovain[Warded to Senior Azurbabes + Iliya + Wilde]
Okay, I have never been in love before. Never. I have never wanted to be and never cared to know what it was like, that shit is messy and complicated and I've been fine as a free woman doing who and what I please. Then I met Phin, and I have developed a lot of stupid feelings. We both care a lot about each other though, so we've been doing great and having fun despite my anxiety.
Now ever since the amortentia experiment my heart has started a slow journey to cardiac arrest. While I acted like a straight up crazy fool, I don't think all of the feelings I experienced that day were fake. I think I really do love Phin and I am FREAKING THE FUCK OUT!!!! Neither of us signed up for this, I felt like I was screwing up already just because I cared so much about him, but now this..? Oh HELL no! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? I DON'T DO THIS, OKAY. I DON'T DO LOVE, I DON'T DO ROMANCE! FUCK. Panicking. Heart attack. I'm going to die. Every time I see him I feel like someone has punched me with a load of lovey dovey romance songs, I can't do this. Running away to Russia sounds like a good idea, right? God damnit, but I'd miss him. DO ANY OF YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW? Fuccccck, someone sedate me.
[OOC: If you reply to this post you're agreeing to be part of a failed ward.]
