gooseberryhigh | dead kids club

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Hey.

This is whatever. But.

In case you want to talk since we all d went through the same thing --
I just thought someone should make the connection somewhere.
Even if we never need it.

You can vent here. Or text me. I don't care.

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[ooc: if i forgot a dead->alive character, please poke me!!! wilde would remember. also pretend there's a phone number up there, i didn't wanna make one up~~]

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Yea. It changes day to day.

I'm [...] glad it was quick. Reid and Fern, too.

I still keep thinking that it's not real? That nothing is real. But hey, on the positive side, I don't really worry about being afraid of things. Even water doesn't freak me out.

I know what you mean.
Especially like [...]
Some days I don't think about it and then something reminds me, and then I feel like I'm in a dream for a second.

But I get that, too. Like -- the worst thing possible so far already happened.
So. It's hard to ~~feel anyt~~ be scared of anything else.

When I wake up, I'm in this weird place where I'm at first happy, then [....] incredibly sad for a long minute, before everything is okay again. It doesn't make sense.

It might not be great but I don't worry about bad things happening.

[Wilde]

Mind if I text you over the summer?

What happened to us kind of doesn't make sense. So. Maybe that's [...] okay.

[Gwen]
No.

Sometimes I suck at remembering to check my phone,
but I'll always text back.

Yea. [....] Maybe this is a bit much, but [...] sometimes I'm ~~angry~~ guilty because I didn't make it to [...] the end, as it were. I don't know if anyone else has the same issue.

[Wilde]

Thanks. I think maybe it'll feel different, over time. And sometimes I'm afraid it won't.

No, I totally get that too. ~~And~~

[Gwen]
I think it's guilt, anyway. I don't know. Just a weird feeling.
If I hadn't chosen the wrong spell, it wouldn't have happened.
But there's no way I could've known. So it's whatever.

It's hard to know.
But either way, we'll be okay.

Just feels like if I hadn't made this choice or that choice, maybe. [....] Or that I was just the weak Ribbonfin. [...] I know Avery feels guilty that I died. I don't know what to do about that.

Yea, I think we will. [....] Hey, you should come visit me in Norway. It'll be cool. Plus, Northern lights have to be in everyone's bucket list, right?

God, we already ruined our bucket lists, didn't we?

None of us were weak. We were in way over our heads.
And [...] I don't know. You should talk to her.
I know she feels weird too. Maybe it'd help.

That would be sick.
You can totally come to SF too.
Big Basin's not that far. See some Redwoods.

We'll just make new ones. Eventually.

Are you going to Casper and Asher's?

I will. I need her to know it's not her fault. She should never have had to endure that.

You're going to be in San Fran? That would be a blast. I've never seen the Redwoods. I'll definitely come out.

Yea, we can do new lists. Fresh start, right? I've got number one. See the Redwoods.

I'll be there. See you then?

So fucked up. I'd be a wreck.

Yeah. I got a scholarship to State Normal for Herbology.
It kinda seems like [...] I don't know.
The thing I should do or whatever.

Totally.

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