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[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

Riri. Help. I'm already running dry and I'm begging for the shit your brother sends. This is my desperation. Spiced rum is gross but it'll do it's job. My family isn't going to bother with coming to visit. Too dangerous. Neither of them are magical and sort of already have plans. Lucky shits.

I wonder if any of my old school friends have ended up being mail order brides. Is that a weird thought?

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Addaya

[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

No I don't want anyone to beat anyone up. It's dumb. Just thought I made a difference but apparently can't even be bothered really to talk or anything. I think I got broken up with or something, I don't even know. Just really nothing. I'm just going to drink.

One day I'll hopefully be told anything at all.

Addaya

[addytives]

You probably did make a difference.
I don't know what's going on either, but like for whatever it's worth, I'm sure it's not you.
It's shit that it's happening to you. I know. Have you tried talking to him?

Addaya

[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

I tried. I got a few words before he basically told me to fuck off. Haven't even really seen him outside of class since the dance.

Addaya

[addytives]

That's really weird.
But it does sound like whatever it is has to do it's him. He's handling it badly, not you. You shouldn't be the one who feels bad now.

Addaya

[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

Problem is, he's one of the only ones that understands some of the shit in my life. So great. Go me. I'm all alone in that shit again.

Addaya

[addytives]

You aren't alone.
I know it's not the same, not all of us know all your stuff
But if you want to talk or like vent or whatever. I can be here without getting all of it.

Addaya

[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

How are your parents?

Addaya

[addytives]

I mean. Fine.

Addaya

[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

How would you feel if you watched one of them die? Not wishing death on them, trust me. Just asking.

Addaya.

[addytives]

I don't know. I can't imagine. It wouldn't be right for me to even like try and guess.

Addaya.

[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

I watched mine die. Kind of fucks up your brain a bit. Drinking at least makes it feel less terrible.

Addaya.

[addytives]

Yeah, that makes sense.
But doing too much of that might make you feel more terrible in the long run. (I know I know, who am I to talk. And I promise I promise I'm not judging.)
Does anything else help?

Addaya.

[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

No I know you aren't. Just nothing really seems to help. I'm homesick for Russia and I can't go back.

Addaya.

[addytives]

Think later, you can? After school? There's magic and Russia's so big. I'm sure there's a way.

Addaya.

[catseyenebula.insanejournal.com]

No, I doubt it. It's too dangerous.