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[insightfulness]

It's really begining to hit me that the school year is almost over.

Have I talked about this already? I'm sorry if it's a repeat topic, I am a little loony from lack of sleep. I'm trying not to think about I'm still trying to figure what I'm going to do this summer break, there's so many options! No there isn't. Why am I lying? You're so stupid Bianca I'm actually so excited to get back home now and be able to sleep in my own bed. Maybe I'll pick up a new familiar, too.

Sorry for my late night ramblings hehe. Pathetic. Move on already.

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[insightfulness]

That sounds really cute. I feel like I'm probably going to end up with a cat or something though. I need an animal to squish when I'm feeling mopey.

Wilde
Can you easily avoid them?

My parents are normally busy, so I'd probably be alone to wallow over my pathetic break-up.

Wilde/Bianca

[destructobot]

I wish.

Oh yeah.
I heard about that.
Sucks.

At least if your parents aren't around they're not going to ask you shit or make you talk about it?

Wilde/Bianca

[insightfulness]

You could come to Alaska and stay with me if you really don't want to be home. I'm supposed to go to Ana's at some point, but maybe you could tag along?

What did you hear?

Sorry, I shouldn't care.

Yeah, they won't. But being alone all summer wouldn't have been great either.

Wilde/Bianca

[destructobot]

Maybe. Let me know, Alaska seems awesome. Like -- wilderness.

Just that it happened.
Honestly, I didn't even know you guys were dating.

Good thing it seems like you won't be.

Wilde/Bianca

[insightfulness]

I will do that! There is some wilderness, but civilization isn't too far if you wanted to visit Anchorage. I was going to take There's whale watching, too.

Oh. Yeah, it didn't last very long. Apparently I'm not as great as he thought.

Hey, you won't be either if I have any say in the matter! You're going to visit Alaska this summer, I promise.

Wilde/Bianca

[destructobot]

Have you gone before? Like -- to see the whales.
That sounds fucking surreal.

[...]
Speaking as a dude, who cares what dudes think about basically anything?

Sick.

[...]
I'd offer for you to come to Chicago, but you know.
Everything sucking, all that.

Wilde/Bianca

[insightfulness]

Not in a really long time. You can usually see Humpback Whales and/or Orcas, it's really crazy seeing how big they really are in person, even from a safe distance.

I don't know. I just thought he liked me a lot, so.. it sucks.

It's okay! We'll make sure Alaska sucks less when you're here.

Wilde/Bianca

[destructobot]

That's so crazy.
What else have you seen out there? Bears? Moose?

Yeah.
I don't know either.
But like [...] Give it time or whatever.
You'll be okay.

Sweet.

Wilde/Bianca

[insightfulness]

Both! Mostly moose, caribou, foxes, porcupine..

He sent me a private ward just now saying "Hey" and I'm really confused. I didn't expect this.

Wilde/Bianca

[destructobot]

Were there like a million caribou?

Tell him he's a dumbass.

Wilde/Bianca

[insightfulness]

Haha no! I've only ever seen maybe three at a time. I don't like to stick around because they're huge and would probably trample me to death.

It's tempting, but I don't think I really have the energy for a fight. He asked me if I'm okay and I'm just sitting here like...... really.

Wilde/Bianca

[destructobot]

You'd live on in school legend, though. Like omg, did you hear about that one girl who got fucking destroyed by caribou?

Be like, "never better."

Wilde/Bianca

[insightfulness]

I think I'd be made fun of more than anything. Not the way I'd like to be remembered.

I did say "fabulous!" and now it sounds like might try to apologize. He probably thinks I'm miserable and feels sorry for me.

Wilde/Bianca

[destructobot]

It's true, we're surrounded by people it's safest to assume the worst of.

Do you want an apology from him, though?

Wilde/Bianca

[insightfulness]

I try to see the good in everyone but.. sometimes it's hard.

He's apologized multiple times and is trying to make excuses about him not being good enough for me and I deserve better. It's frustrating.

Wilde/Bianca

[destructobot]

That's a nice way of putting it.

Call him out, dude.

Wilde/Bianca

[insightfulness]

I try to be nice. It's not always easy though.

I sorta did and.. I don't really know. I guess we're on speaking terms again?