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gooseberryhigh2017-05-25 02:15 am
insightfulness) wrote in gooseberryhigh2017-05-25 02:15 am
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It's really begining to hit me that the school year is almost over.
Have I talked about this already? I'm sorry if it's a repeat topic, I am a little loony from lack of sleep.I'm trying not to think about I'm still trying to figure what I'm going to do this summer break, there's so many options! No there isn't. Why am I lying? You're so stupid Bianca I'm actually so excited to get back home now and be able to sleep in my own bed. Maybe I'll pick up a new familiar, too.
Sorry for my late night ramblings hehe.Pathetic. Move on already.
Have I talked about this already? I'm sorry if it's a repeat topic, I am a little loony from lack of sleep.
Sorry for my late night ramblings hehe.
Bianca + Oscar
WhatHiI don't know what to sayHey
Bianca + Oscar
All things considered.
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[...] I shouldn't have yelled at you.
Bianca + Oscar
I'm not bitter I'm not bitter I'm not bitterBianca + Oscar
[...] I
felt like I didn't deserveIt's not right tI'm sorry. I didn't get upset to "get out." I [...] thought you wanted out.
Whatever, you're right. Maybe it's better this way.
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[...]
It fucking sucked, Oscar.
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[...]
I was just gonna hold you backYou're amazing, B.
I just don't think
I'm good eI'm good for you.Bianca + Oscar
I sure don't feel like I am.
That's a stupid excuse, Oz. I was perfectly happy, I couldn't have wished for anything more.
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feelfelt that way.I'm sorry
I keep fucking it all upYou really are great.
I'll leave you alone now.
Bianca + Oscar
I just made you feel worthless the whole time, so it doesn't sound like it.
[a small tear leaks on to the page]
You do whatever makes you feel better.
Re: Bianca + Oscar
It has nothing to do with you.
I've felt like that my whole life.
Stop making it aboutI'm leaving you alone to make you feel betBianca + Oscar
Bianca + Oscar
Don't be sad because I suck at communicating. You didn't do anything wrong. Neither of us did. We just misunderstood each other and overreacted and got defensive like everyone does. I'm sorry for that.
Bianca + Oscar
It's.. okay, I guess. What's done is done.
Now whatAt least now we can talk again or something.I'm guessing you don't want to geThanks for trying with me.Re: Bianca + Oscar
Well that was an epicly fucked up misunderstanding[...] If you want to talk to me. You don't have to.
We could have had fun together, and I'm glad I did try I just [...] don't think we're good together, you know. I'm not right for you. You're amazing and
I'm just mbeautiful and fun and so smart. You deserve someone like that, too.Bianca + Oscar
I miss youif you want to.Don't I have some say in who is and isn't right for me?
You don't have to make excuses if you just don't want to be with meYou're all those things too, Oz. Just because you don't think so it doesn't mean it's not true.Re: Bianca + Oscar
I want to, too. I don't want things to be weird or to never talk to you again. :(
Of course you do.
Can I ever say anything right[...] I guess [...] I don't know what to do now.Bianca + Oscar
[...] Neither do I.
Re: Bianca + Oscar
We'll just have to figure it out as we go along.
[...] I totally saw it, though. That clerk outfit ROCKED.
Bianca + Oscar
You think so? I was regretting the white on it after a while, it got dirty very easily.
Bianca + Oscar
It's not believable LARP if you don't get a little dirty.
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