gooseberryhigh | (no subject)

Entry tags:

(no subject)

[Warded to Gabi]

rethinking my reply to your earlier question: i am a terrible prefect and i have no idea what i'm doing. who allowed teenagers to be in any way responsible for other teenagers? like - how is this a thing? who thought this was a good idea?

[Warded to Wyatt]

when this whole school implodes and i lose my scholarship and my mother reveals her true, demonic form in order to eat my face straight off, please play something super nice at my funeral. like, maybe some beatles music. always a classic.

also: this inevitability also means that you will be morally obligated to take care of ariel. she's yours now. congratulations. also, gabi. but that's less of an obligation and more of a privilege. do not abuse it.

[Warded to Lucas]

are you studying? ~~is it worki~~ how's that going?

do you sometimes think about the fact that people attending no-maj schools only really maybe worry about people posting dumb shit about them on facebook? cause i totally think about that sometimes.

Threaded | Top-Level Comments Only

I'm starting to get my star charts confused with my Transfiguration equations ~~but at least I'm not thinking about other stuff~~. Is it possible to study too much? Because I think I'm there. Now.

You know, yeah. I used to be terrified by the prospect. Now? Eh.

[...]

How are you holding up?

the words don't look like words anymore. they're sad, vaguely letter-shaped blobs. that i should probably remember more about. because they're probably going to be important again at some point. so, yes. i think too much studying is possibly a thing.

i feel like i could laugh in facebook's, um [...] face (y'know what, we're just going with it.) at this point. facebook knows NOTHING.

i'm okay? probably. i'm not dead yet, which is how i have realigned my personal barometer for how well i'm doing. it's working out great so far! how bout you?

Well, then, it's time for a break. Before my brain starts leaking and I lose those 2 months of piano lessons I had when I was 11.

Right? Facebook? Hah. The things we're contending with don't even have faces.

Good. [...] Well, okay, not good if you're basing your wellness on a "Dead / Not Dead" boolean. I'm ~~terrified~~ [...] tired.

What? You are not. You are doing the best you can!

it's probably best that you retain the possibility of becoming a musical prodigy. you never know when you might need it. you wanna [...] watch something? i'd ask if you wanted to go for a walk, but we live in a horrifying murder forest. so indoor activities are probably best.

seriously, we're all so beyond the scope of facebook at this point. facebook ain't got shit.

good enough? good-ish? good adjacent? [...] we could take a nap? my nieces have good things to say about them.

I'm a real virtuoso so long as the only song I'm playing is Heart and Soul. [...] Yeah, that sounds [...] really good. And not at all likely to get us whisked away to Neverland. Any preference on what to watch this time?

I'd like to see a cyberbully come here and try to start something with a giant deer monster.

Good-esque? Off Good? We'll workshop it. [...] I wouldn't be opposed to a nap, either.

yeah, but is it very good? it doesn't feel very good. it kinda feels like the whole school's freaking out and i don't want anything to happen to anybody.

it's a niche market, but somebody's got to fill it. [...] so what we're saying is that the 1953 disney classic is right out? what're you interested in? romance? horrible dance routines? explosions?

well, that's ONE way to stop the bullying epidemic in american schools. but if the battle was being waged on the front of cattiness alone, who knows? it could go either way.

diet good. good lite. [...] we can find a good nap movie. maybe nix the explosions.

Personal preference? Hard no on any iteration of Peter Pan for the foreseeable future. If we're cutting out explosions and looking for a good nap movie, what about something animated? Iron Giant or something?

You know, I think I'd still put my money on the forest shit, but who knows, it's hard to beat an anonymous teenager when it comes to cattiness.

Good, jr. Or, The Artist Formerly Known as Good. That's a bit of a mouthful, tho.

you just want to watch me cry like a 12-year-old girl. but i'm down with it. i have accepted my emotions and am willing to bank on the hope that i'll pass out BEFORE the part. y'know. that one. where i experience said emotions.

it'd definitely be the sort of race people could put down some serious cash money on.

you want me to come out your way?

A race against the clock. Nap or cry. Who will win?

You know if we make it through the end of the school year and Gooseberry stays open maybe we could monetize this.

[...] Yeah, do you mind? The further we both are from the woods, the better I feel.

I don't know.

Do you think we should [...] tell someone the truth? I don't know if that would help though? I mean, the adults know about the Thing now, right?

who knows, maybe it'll be both. i might sleep-cry.

junior year plans ahoy. they HAVE to let us come back now.

yeah, no. you are safely not in the middle of bat country. this is the most sensible option.

i don't think it'd help anything. it'd be a lot easier if it would, but you're right. everybody knows about what's out there. more words aren't going to make a difference.

I admire your ability to multitask.

Can't close the school. This is America. There's money to be made.

Cool. Bird country may be a little noisier, but a lot safer. You can't even throw yourself off the cliff.

single-tasking is way harder, honestly.

us scholarship kids don't provide enough money. we're just here to be first choice for the blood sacrifices.

eh, a little noise never hurt nobody. we're not allowed to throw ourselves off of cliffs? but this is a free country!

Sometimes, I don't know how people do it.

The secret ingredient is academic ambition and/or being terrorized into doing well by your parents expectations. Just makes that blood especially potent for all sorts of dark rituals.

You can try, but the alarms'll go off and who wants to deal with that. Freedom to fling yourself off a cliff? Sure. Not freedom from consequence.

and admirable deal of self restraint?

man, i'm gonna be a delicious sacrificial lamb. liberally flavored by the power of grade-based anxiety and jewish guilt. i'll open the gates of hell myself.

well, no. it'd still end poorly. but i'd be ALLOWED and that's what really matters.

I can only hope to reach such heights.

You're destined for big things. At least you'll do your family proud one way or another? I mean, what else are you going to be when you learn your son bridged the gap between the living and the damned? You can't be mad about that. It's too impressive.

Freedom isn't free, Bash.

[...]

You won't lose your scholarship, dude. You are like the smartest and most responsible of all of us. It doesn't make sense to take away your scholarship. Besides, if the school is truly imploding, I doubt they'll have time to worry about scholarships.

Also your mom is nice. Way better than Ariel. Please take care of Ariel from the grave yourself. Failing which, I think I may join you in the afterworld shortly myself, most likely.

As for Gabi: as though you even have to ask. Will the world continue spinning? Will the sun keep rising from the East? Will I keep treating Gabi like the goddess she is?

All that aside though. I know you're probably slowly melting into a little puddle of anxiety. Please don't. You will BE FINE. We will all come out of this okay. I have faith. I mean, we're teenagers in a camping high school. Doing stupid shit is kind of our prerogative. There's no sense in punishing select people of one group just because of it. ~~If they do they're stupid~~

i believe in you. if i can open a portal into hell itself, you can DEFINITELY become a respected paragon of self restraint and single-minded focus.

i've got MAYBE four dollars? how far's that gonna get me?

that's vastly untrue. but the part about the school imploding and, therefore, there being no need for scholarships in the first place totally makes sense. that's actually reassuring? if we're all dead, nobody needs scholarships! corpses don't attend school.

nah, ariel will be despondent and weakened. she won't be able to kill you.

she IS a goddess, it's true. we have truly been blessed.

i may not be fine, but at least i will have studied SO MANY THINGS. my soul will exit this mortal coil FAR more knowledgeable than it entered.

~~ugh. too soon for corpse jokes~~ right? there's always a silver lining in the worst circumstances. you taught me that, dude. I'm just returning the favour.

[...]
As much as the idea of Ariel despondent and weakened delights me, we're talking about your hypothetical death here: I'm probably going to be equally weakened. Ergo, she probably still has net ability to smoosh me like a bug.

~~Does that actually work?~~ I look at these words and notes. And they kinda just look back? I can't process anything. It feels rather like an exercise in futility.

[...]
If talking about it helps, dude, I'm here for you. And to go with that: I can't make any of those fancy calming draughts. But I do a good chamomile?

Lofty goals, but maybe I'll reach them with your encouragement.

Man, that's not going to grease many hands. Four bucks nets you the freedom to toss something less than 5lbs off the cliff, at best.

you are an inspiration.

yeah, but would she have the motivation? also, yeah. you're right. this is a terrible line of conversation and i'm honestly not even emotionally ready for jokes about corpses yet either. i'm taking that back.

i've kind of reached the point in my studying journey where it's mostly staring into the void. so i feel you.

i'm [...] actually heading over to azurcrest for a bit? to watch something? and maybe take a nap? ~~oh GOD~~ ~~you're going to be insufferable about this.~~

Threaded | Top-Level Comments Only

Page 1 of 3

(no subject)

Bash

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Bash

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Gabash

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Gabash

Bash/Lucas

Gabash

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Bash/Lucas

Wysh

Bash/Lucas

Wysh

Re: Wysh

Bash/Lucas

Wysh