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UHM sure!!! Are you out of CANDY???

no?

no, actually i got a bunch of chocolate today. if you want some? i think i got snickers.

which is [...] which is not what i wanted to ask? ~~wow, way to execu~~ i just [...] i wanted some advice. from someone who isn't afraid to call me stupid? if i'm being stupid. cause i think i'm being stupid.

YES.

I mean. I'll tell you that you're being stupid for FREE. But I'll ALSO do it for some SNICKERS.

WHAT are you being STUPID about???

you can call me stupid twice, then. one complimentary and then one for pay.

so, i um [...] so i haven't told lucas something that i maybe should tell him. which - i mean, i didn't LIE. i just didn't say it. but i guess that's not exactly BETTER because not TECHNICALLY lying is still [...] not good? you're supposed to be honest when you like somebody. [...] right?

OKAY, I'll be sure to use it CAREFULLY.

UHM. SURE. [.............] Are you IN LOVE with LUCAS???

NO.

i mean, not that [...] no, that's not [...] WOW, that is not what i was talking about. although, don't say that either. [...] shit. [...] i mean, not that i'm saying that i'm NOT or that i am or that [...] fuck, i can't [...] i think that maybe if i told him the thing (THE THING THAT IS NOT THAT) that he maybe wouldn't like me and i REALLY don't want him to not like me or for him to feel super AWKWARD when he talks to me.

UHM. Wait. WHAT??? Now I'm CONFUSED??? WHAT are you TALKING about??? What is THE THING and WHY are you LYING. The like ONLY time you can LIE is when you know you're gonna get into SUPER TROUBLE if you don't or if like it would be SO EMBARRASSING that you would like DIE.

[...] And okay but are you SURE you're not in love with him because you're like THE GROSSEST couple that I know???

the second one. it's [...] definitely the second one. cause [...] look, lucas is super fucking smart and he worked in a LIBRARY last summer and he likes shakespeare and lovecraft and shit and i [...] fuck. i can't read books. like i can't. at all. for more than like MAYBE ten minutes. it's really hard. unless it's like [...] out loud. like i'm in first grade. and if i say that he's gonna think i'm stupid. and now a liar. a stupid liar.

we're not THAT gross.

OH UM ~~OKAY but BOOKS are like SUPER BORING so I don't think ANYONE can actually BLAME you~~ ~~UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH OKAY no he's like UPSET that isn't going to HELP~~ [.............] Okay FIRST I'm gonna earn my Snickers and say you're being STUPID. Like sometimes Lucas throws books off the cliff with me so like maybe he understands that SOME books are just like REALLY REALLY boring and hard to read??? And yeah OKAY I guess that it's not like me and LUCAS are gross and kissing because EW that would be SUPER GROSS but he knows that I think books are DUMB and we're still FRIENDS or whatever. ~~IS THIS HELPING??? I'm not a PREFECT!!!~~

[...] UM OR LIKE. You know JEFFY is the Wiz Lit TA so maybe he could HELP YOU read the boring stuff that Lucas reads??? And then you won't be LYING??? ~~Is THAT good advice???~~

But like I'm PRETTY SURE that he's TOTALLY in love with you and won't CARE??? Like he probably KNOWS by now that books aren't SUPER your thing??? Don't you talk about MOVIES and stuff??? I never know WHAT you're talking about?!?

No, trust me, you're like SUPER gross.

thanks. i needed that. um.

i LIKE them. i do. there's lots of good books. [...] i just, the words get all jumbled or i can't pay attention to them or i READ them, but i have NO IDEA what they said after i get to the bottom of the page. and you and lucas - that's different? i mean, he KNOWS you don't like them. you didn't [...] omit things. you're kinda one of the most honest people i know?

wouldn't i still be lying? or maybe cheating? even if i get jeffy to read books to me? cause [...] when you like somebody aren't you supposed to tell them things? like all of the IMPORTANT things, at least? you're supposed to be like you. honest, i mean?

he [...] ~~oh. um.~~ we talk about a lot of things?

sorry?

~~UM. Yes???~~ ~~That's like A LOT of words, but I'm pretty sure the answer here is yes???~~ ~~OK OK. Let me like TRY to read this again.~~

[.............] OKAY. So like if I was REE then I would like DEFINITELY one hundred percent say that you should ALWAYS tell the truth??? ~~And TRUTHFULLY that's kind of ANNOYING???~~

But I think if I was ZACH I would ask if TELLING the truth was going to HURT someone. Or like. Is NOT TELLING going to hurt someone??? [...] And it sounds like maybe it IS hurting YOU that you're keeping this a secret from Lucas???

So. [.............] Yes. That's my FINAL answer. UM. Yes being that honesty is GOOD and you should talk to Lucas.

And like if he's mean about it or something then just tell me and I'll steal his glasses or his cat or something until he's nice to you again.

It's OKAY but now I can't marry Virion because he said YOU'RE Virion and that's who HE married.

that's YOUR answer, right? not ree's or zach's or anybody else's? cause i [...] i asked you. i wanna know what you think. not anybody else.

you maybe shouldn't steal his glasses, though. he's kinda blind without them.

i [...] have no idea what you're talking about?

[......] I don't know??? I'm not like [...] GOOD with telling people STUFF.

Okay fine then I promise I'll take his cat instead.

In Fire Emblem??? You kill bad guys and marry people??? We made a list of all the people you can marry and matched them with people at school. TECHNICALLY he also married ME but that was before I started playing the game. And I only get to be Lucina because I tried to lick his ear again.

why not? i mean, [...] you're SUPER honest. like i can't imagine you being bad with telling anybody anything. you didn't hesitate on the calling me stupid thing.

danny won't mind. she's super cuddly and probably very easy to kidnap.

oh! oh, i've heard of that. so i'm his second wife. i'm cool with that. wait [...] again? how many times have you licked lucas' ears?

UGGGGGGGGGGGGGghhhhhhhhhh. But it's like WAY easier to tell people when they're being STUPID??? Then like [...] STUFF???

Oh no actually you're his first HUSBAND. He has a girl character TOO so he can marry BOYS. And UM. [...] Like less than five times??? Maybe??? That's why he showed me the game???

i GUESS so. but it's [...] it's maybe more important when it's stuff?

huh. ain't never thought i'd end up marrying a girl, but i guess things happen sometimes. that's [...] a bunch of times. does the game let people lick other people's ears?

MAYBE??? But then you have to like [...] find the right TIME??? Like stuff should definitely WAIT if you have like [...] a game.

YEAH??? I don't know if I would say you're Virion??? He has blue hair and an ASCOT??? But Lucas was like SUPER FIRM about you being Virion. So like. I don't know??? He's weird. And no, I just do that to annoy him.

i think you try really hard to do that. to find the right time? but it's [...] there isn't one? not really. it's kinda more panic-induced bravery. and a lot of metaphorically crossing your fingers?

i'll maybe trust him on it. but i'm not NEARLY fancy enough to wear an ascot. like - blue hair sounds cool? but definitely not an ascot.

[...........] Okay so like DON'T tell anyone??? But I like finally managed to revise my lists a bunch and put them in ORDER and like cross off [...] a BUNCH of names. [....] And the only name left was Jeffy??? BUT LIKE don't tell. NO ONE knows except like [...] Ira and Captain Jaime and I only told Captain Jaime because I was worried he was gonna kick me off the team if I DIDN'T tell him but before that I was really worried he was gonna kick me off if I DID tell him??? [...] And I guess Captain Jaime ISN'T like mad and I thought he would be because he's my other Chaser partner but I really DON'T want to do anything to mess stuff up before our game??? But then Jeffy asked me to cotillion and he wants me to meet his sister and I'm like PRETTY sure she's going to know I want to kiss him even though Ira said that's impossible but it's NOT because what if she's a LEGILIMENS and I don't take Occlumency because I thought DADA was dumb and I dropped it when I got to Gooseberry and so I don't qualify for it and I don't have my Animagus form either which is TOO BAD because if I did then I could like turn into an ANIMAL and just RUN AWAY if things got really AWKWARD with his sister but I can't so now I'm not sure WHAT I'm gonna do but I need to make sure that I don't mess up Quidditch because I don't like ONE HUNDRED precent believe Captain Jaime when he says he won't kick me off the team. (But I maybe do like ninety nine percent believe him??? He's a really great captain and I bet if Pippa was still here she would marry him???)

[....................]

Yeah, I dunno. I think it was less about the ascot and more because he wants to marry you.

oh! that's - i [...] okay, i won't tell. and i don't [...] i mean, i don't think that it's a bad thing to play together and like somebody? it'd be unfair of your captain to be mad about it. people play quidditch AGAINST people they like, so [...] it isn't any worse than that? you guys are both really good? at quidditch? wouldn't you be EVEN MORE in sync?

and sisters are [...] okay, sisters can be hard? but you're [...] you're SUPER cool and super awesome and i think my sisters would be happy about a girl like you wanting to kiss me? i mean, hypothetically. because [...] JEFFY. i'm just saying you're the kind of girl people WANT dating their siblings. man, jeffy is SUPER lucky. and, y'know, also super cute? and nice and stuff?

oh. um. okay?

OKAY thank you??? And like MAYBE that's true but if it isn't then like I don't want to like SUPER MESS UP everything when we have a game in two weeks??? Like I am pretty sure I would completely DIE if I told him and he was just like JEFFY NICE and I don't know??? Said THANKS??? And I need to be super NOT dead if I'm going to play in the game???

[...] Yeah, he's really good at CARRYING things. And THANKS. I hope his sister is like YOURS and not like MINE.

YEAH, I told you he's weird.

that's [...] yeah, okay. i can see why you'd want to wait until after the game. but i DO think you should tell him. cause there's no way he doesn't like you too. i mean, he asked you to the dance, right?

ariel's kind of a monster. but it's really hard to hate lucas? so she was cool about that.

that's okay. i like him anyway.

UM. I mean I BOUGHT him so he HAD to go with me and then he only asked me to go with him to cotillion so he could go to New York??? There was definitely NO like [...] WOW ESSIE you're SO CUTE and every time we're in a closet together I REALLY WANT TO KISS YOU but then I get really shy and embarrassed so I start talking about where ghosts sleep instead because that's actually something I'm not sure about??? Like the forest is REALLY BIG so it could be ANYWHERE but maybe it's actually in the GROTTO??? And did the ghosts used to kiss in the makeout closet BEFORE they died??? Or do they ever use it now that they're dead??? I mean obviously HENRY isn't gonna be in there but I think the rest of them could??? Well not PEARL that would be gross. Either that or maybe it's just like a supply closet for where they keep their like GHOST BROOMS and stuff for when Brother gets really upset with them and makes them sweep the FOREST as punishment. But like definitely not actually KISSING??? I meant the first time was WEIRD since he was already going to prom with ISSY but not the second time??? So I don't know WHAT that means???

See??? SUPER GROSS.

you know he lives in jersey, right? he could go to new york LITERALLY whenever. i mean, i think the appealing part's the going to new york with YOU. [...] and, um - the closet's SUPER awkward like in general? me and lucas just talked about edgar allan poe and i tried to cram myself into a corner so it wouldn't seem like i was trying to crowd him? because it's like REALLY small in there and talking about ghost chores is DEFINITELY more comfortable than figuring out how to make your limbs work properly when shoved into a box with someone you think's cute?

THAT'S all it takes to be gross?

Okay but he can't like go to New York RIGHT NOW because we're in school and it wasn't one of the school trip options??? Which like hey did you ever make that list of FOOD for all the places??? I am still REALLY hoping they don't make us go to GREECE but I at least want to eat something GOOD there if we have to??? [...] Yeah I pretty much just stay shoved in the corner because he's so BIG and I'm like NOT.

Well YEAH. It's not like I have a STRICT criteria.

yeah, but we're gonna be on winter break like NEXT month. it's not THAT far away. yeah, i started it. it needs some revisions but greece still has some promising food options. like souvlaki and baklava and there's cookies with almonds and powdered sugar that have a really long name that starts with a k? [...] and he just might not want to get too much in your face? like - just in case YOU don't want to kiss HIM?

but if i didn't like him, it'd be stupid to be dating him.

Edited 2017-11-06 04:19 (UTC)

But there won't be fancy VIP tote bags then??? Probably??? Are you gonna take Lucas??? If they DON'T give out tote bags we're gonna make our own and definitely steal all the soap if we get to stay in a HOTEL and is there anything I can steal for you??? [...] And his face is like WAY up there so that's not really a problem.

Well yeah, the first criteria of being gross is dating someone.

i'll bring you guys tote bags. and - no. nah, i'm not going. like at ALL. lucas might go with jade? if she doesn't have somebody? jade said she'd steal me a fork. if you get me a spoon, i almost have a full set of cutlery. [...] yeah, seriously. the hell do they feed the boys in azurcrest? they're all gigantic.

oh well. gotta tell lucas it's time to break up then. can't be seen being gross.

I promise I'll find you the BEST spoon.

Don't be mean to Lucas or I'll have to steal YOUR cat instead.

NICE. i appreciate it. gonna have to get one of those display cases.

you know i'd never, right? he's [...] i mean, i'm gonna tell him. so i'm not lying. even if he's unhappy with me after. i don't even want to be mean to him on accident?

I can SEE if we can fit one of those in our tote bags TOO.

You're being STUPID again. He's not going to be upset because he's super in love with you and it's TOTALLY gross. OK??? [...] But also GOOD.

they'll probably catch you if you jack an entire display case. best to stick with the small ticket items.

~~you think t~~ and there's two. so now you definitely get a snickers bar?

Don't underestimate Estella de Ville.

Will work for peanuts. And chocolate. And nougat. And creamy caramel.

oh. i know better. and, i mean, jeffy's kind of jacked. you could put him in a hoodie and stick it under one his arms and you'd be fine.

man, that sounds really good. want one right now? i'll come eat with you.

Oh TOTALLY. We'll have to find one with like a TUXEDO PRINT on the front though he doesn't get kicked OUT.

I ALWAYS want candy. Come to me!!!

see now THERE'S a tuxedo i could maybe pull off. you're kind of a genius.

you got it, chief!

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