gooseberryhigh | (no subject)

Yeah.

I mean, we probably should. We got the drama spotlight tonight.

WHATEVEEEER, I don't care what anyone thinks about me???? But [...] I do care about [...] what you think. About, you know. Stuff.

[...] So on that note, I haven't been saying STUFF about you. Like, I know I messed up pretty badly. When we broke up and [.....] more recently. Um, geez. OK OK OK so I know I probably should've approached you about this sooner but I'm bad at talking about [...] this kind of thing. Which you know already.

[...] OK SO THAT WAS POORLY DONE, LET'S START OVER

I'm sorry about everything I did. Just... oooof. EVERYTHING.

[....]

It's ok. I'm sorry too. I kinda want to call bullshit on you not caring about what people think but it's not my place ~~anymore~~.

Look, I'm not worried you're like trash talking me or whatever to your friends. And I'm not either. Sorry I didn't say something or stop them? I just don't know WHAT to say, yknow?

[...] I liked dating you. You're boyfriend material. Just [...] not for me.

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Nah, it's cool. I really don't care. It's not like they were deducing anything ~~unreasonable~~ about Micah St. Clair, FLAKY JERK EXTRAORDINAIRE.

I get it. I didn't know what to say either. I mean I thought about it but I know you would've hated anons defending your dateability and it was like KIND OF messed up to argue with anons about your dateability when I haven't like you know. Talked to you about [...] yeah.

[.....]

Can we still be friends?

See when you go and do the self-deprecating self-putdown thing it just proves me right. I'll go first: I totally care that people are calling me an oversensitive dickhead who made you scared to be around me. Shit sucks. I hate thinking that's true.

Yeah. WHATEVER. We'll both find someone new. No one's going to read some anons saying we were assholes and decide not to go for us if they like us.

[...] We already are still friends.

Well that's NOT true. You're a really cool guy?????? I mean who could seriously BLAME YOU for getting upset for dating someone like me???? But anyway I'm taking a break from the whole dating deal. You should DEFINITELY find someone though!!!! Who are you into now?????????? :O

OK. [...] I mean, it's COOL with me if you're not into it. But [...] I want us to OK, if we can be OK.

Some guys. All bad ideas. I dunno. I'm trying to step back from it. I'm not going to go for someone again unless I know it's the real deal and they can handle me. I'm not going to spring my issues on anyone again. Maybe this time I'm gonna wait for someone to come to me.

Dude relax. I don't say anything I don't mean. We're ok.

That's... not a BAD IDEA???? Kind of wild, but just like IDK how I'd even do it if it were me???? I'm used to always being the person who chases after people.

Aw see???? You are WAY MORE CHILL than these meanies think you are. They have noooo idea what they're talking about!!!!

SAME. I've been so hung up on what I'M gonna do that I have no idea if anyone reciprocates. So... yeah. Hey, let's make a pact as NEW FRIENDS to cool our heels and if people want us they need to come get us.

I'm just over it is all. I'm actually not chill. You know that.

You know what???? DEAL. If someone wants to go to Winter Formal with me then they need to take the initiative and ask first!!!! [...] Which might end up being like a weird issue if like a bunch of anon randos start asking me but IT'S COOL bc I'm like almost sure four of them were my roommates??????

[...] Yeah. I know. [...] You can talk about this stuff with me you know???? If you want. And it's not like TOO WEIRD.

I mean, maybe? But at least a couple of them are pretty into making out with you soooooo watch out. [...] Just say no if you're not into someone who asks you. No point in going out if you don't want to.

I don't even talk about that shit with my best friend and roommates, man. It's not fun.

Yeaaaah I don't think I've ever said "no" to anyone ever in my life. At least not when it comes to KISSING.

Right but if you keep it all bottled up then you're going to drive yourself CRAZY right???? Idk I know I don't have the best track record when it comes to listening but it just kinda makes me worry about you I guess?????

Try it on for size. Maybe restraint'll suit you.

I'm ok. Don't worry. [...] I just don't want to fuck up any of my friendships and I can't tell if I'm really into someone or if I just like the way they make me feel. [...] Maybe that's why I went for you so hard.

You have no idea how much I'm RESTRAINING myself right now.

I was happy. But... yeah OK. Maybe I kind of jumped into it for the wrong reasons too. Like, you were great. REALLY great. But [...] not boyfriend material for me either. ~~The guys I've liked have always been so emotionally unavailable and you~~ [...] Soooo it's one of your friends huh. Or like... a few of your friends?????

Yeah???

We know better now I guess. [...] And yeah but that's more reason to not do anything impulsive. I wish I could relax enough to be all IF IT'S MEANT TO BE IT'LL HAPPEN but I don't fucking know.

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