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Time for an outlet

[Friends]

I'll be in the artificing shed whenever I'm not in my cabin, so don't bother asking otherwise. By next week, I'll have something that will work. Either something that will identify them or a charm we can wear proving we are real. The latter is easier, so I might get that out of the way first to concentrate on the former. ~~Oakes might let me work through dinner~~

~~[Warded to Calvin]~~

~~[Warded to Avery]~~

~~[Warded to Casper]~~

[Private]

There's no one to trust anymore.

[Webster]

Why did you lie to me about the candygram?

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I've got nothing else going on. I can do artificing in my sleep.

I saw your cabinmates were there for you. That's good. For a hot second, I was going to take out Cameron. Thankfully, he won't notice if I avoid him for a while.

Edited (Playing superangry gwen is hard) 2018-02-04 20:01 (UTC)

That's not the point. And, no, you can't.

[...] We were there for Carney. He's the one that needed it. And he did what needed to be done.

~~Watch me~~ Then what is the point? To wait? For what to happen next?

[...]

He did. Trust me, I'm aware he did better than me by a mile. I'm sorry for him right now. He's lucky to have you all. ~~That was stupid, me saying that to you like it~~

[...] The point is to work hard but not fucking overwhelm yourself. You're no good to anyone that way. And you don't deserve it.

Did you run into any mimics when they were in the Lodge? Anyone tell you things you didn't know?

And I'm sorry I said what I did about Cameron.

[......] I'm not certain.

It's fine. I just don't want him getting shit over this he doesn't deserve. You know?

[...] So you did hear or see something you didn't want to.

I found out that someone had lied to me. Maybe it's crazy to want to end these things for making me aware of lies but it's just one of the reasons.

[...] I would never do, or say, anything to Cameron about this. He did the right thing. I just wish I never had to see that.

[...] Nothing worth discussing.

They're fucking with us. They're a threat. They deserve whatever we can throw at them. But [...] what you found out. Do you think it's better to know?

[...] I understand. I can't say I wouldn't have thought the same if it were one of my friends.

Maybe not now. But I think it won't let go so easily. They aren't all lies.

I don't know. [...] I would be happier if I didn't know. But I wouldn't know that I had been a fool. Is it better to know the truth? Maybe. Some. It changes things.

[...] It hurt to see. Imagine ~~if it was me~~ seeing someone you l care about apparently struck down in front of you. Its not [...] a rational reaction. Its not his fault, not at all.

[...] I didn't say it was a lie. Regardless, it's not worth discussing. And I'm not certain the Strangers had anything to do with it.

Not for the better, I take it. [...] If I can help, tell me.

I know. And I'm sorry. And I fucking hate those things for dragging you and Carney into this.

Make me a deal, then. I'm not okay, not by a mile, but this, talking about it, made it better. If you want to talk about it, come to me.

[...] Better to have my eyes opened. [...] It's about Knox asking me to the dance. Because he didn't. You can guess who did.

But it wasn't malicious. I ~~think~~ believe that. Just [...] being lied to. Tricked. It's a lot.

We were all dragged into this. That's why I want to do this, find us a way out. You haven't talked me out of that much. [....] How is Cameron doing?

~~You don't want to hear about this, Popplestone.~~ [...] I doubt it'll come to that.

Ignacz. ~~And he never told y~~ [...] That's fucked up. Regardless of intention. I'm sorry.

I wouldn't want to talk you out of it altogether. There's a reason I've been putting in so much extra time with DADA. We should all do what we can. [...] Carney is remarkably resilient. This is difficult but he's handling it.

Make the deal anyway. Even if the big revelation was that you can't stand me, you know I'll listen. And I'll be honest. That's what it means that I'm your friend before anything else.

[...] She was trying to help him. ~~It's that~~ He didn't know anything about me. I think it's better I know.

This is what I can do. It's what I am good at. ~~It's distracting me from~~ I need to do it. [...] Your friends, they are all pretty tough. It's admirable.

[...] I can't, Popplestone. Let's drop it.

Trying to help him doesn't make it all right to mess with you. Not that I'm surprised she'd pull that sort of stunt. Shit like this has just become more common around here too. [...] But I think you're right. Knowing is better. Whatever choices you make from here, at least they're informed choices.

Just keep in mind what I said. Don't end up passing out in the fucking Artificing shed. [...] But. Yeah. They are.

Okay, consider it dropped. Promise.

~~Two months~~ I need people to understand there might never be the 'right' time to tell the truth but you have to do it anyway. Even when it's not pretty. Saying something two months ago would have been so different than me finding out now by accident. I would have still felt like a fool, but it wouldn't have hurt as much.

We Ribbonfins like to sleep everywhere but our own cabin, you know. [...] I'm glad you have them.

Thank you.

[...] I can't say I never lie. But lying for the sake of a more appealing narrative, to make someone like you more, is manipulative bullshit. You aren't a fool. You just gave the wrong person the benefit of the doubt. Even if Ignacz started this, he should've said something before now. [...] What do you think you'll do?

If Stoker lets you sleep there, she's lost her fucking mind.

[...]

So am I.

Everyone lies sometime. I get that. But if it's what you based the start of everything on, [...] second guessing is what I am left with. That's why I feel foolish. I don't want to filter everything through this lens, but it's hard not to.

I [...] don't know what I will do. Take some time to think. Concentrate on dealing with the problem in front of me, these Strangers. ~~Avoid everything to do with Valentine's Day period~~ Avoid candy. Try to survive to my birthday at least? As good a goal as any.

Rosy would set me on fire if I hinted at that.

Hey, just to warn you, [....] I told Webster some time ago that I [...] liked someone else, and that's why things weren't so simple. Somehow, Lilika figured out it's you. Maybe watch your back. I think she'll do anything to better his odds, so to speak.

Trust me, I hated writing all of that just now.

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