Finally pulling the trigger on this.

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[Warded to Cash Private]

How

[Warded to Cash Private]

Hello, Cash. I wanted to talk a

[Warded to Micah Private]

I resent that a school assembly is making me do any soul searching but

[Warded Private]

You're an idiot.

[An hour later.]

[Warded to Cash]

Can I ask you a personal question?

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Calvin & Cash

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[ ... ... ... ] You can ask.

Calvin & Cash

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I'm trying to think of how to phrase this without being too intrusive. I know that last year I said I'd never mention it again, but I have to break that promise just this once.

Calvin & Cash

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[...] Great. Okay. Consider the topic red-flagged.

Calvin & Cash

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Right. So.

[...] How did you determine that you were male?

Calvin & Cash

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[ ... ... ... ... ... ] Incrementally.

Calvin & Cash

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That's [...] reasonable.

How did it feel?

Calvin & Cash

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Very bad.

What are you looking for? A timeline? A personal statement?

Calvin & Cash

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No. Not quite.

I'm [...] trying to figure something out.

Calvin & Cash

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A [...] "personal question" personal question?

Calvin & Cash

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Yes.

So if you did feel inclined to give a personal statement on the [...] situation, I'd be interested.

Calvin & Cash

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[ ... ... ... ... ] I don't think I can help you. I'll relay the details. Efficacy of the overshare, to be determined.


Pandora's box. [...] I [...] had a thought. I've forgotten the details now. Obviously, it was unpleasant. I tried to ignore it and distract myself, unsuccessfully. Which was [...] painful difficult in itself. Ordinarily, I'm very good at [...] compartmentalizing. It would pop up in my weaker moments. Eventually, I gave in and acknowledged that I was [ ... ... ] different.

I imagined myself as someone else. Stupid. Silly. I thought it might [...] serve as a release, but of course, it made everything worse. Once recognized, never undone. I made small changes. The [...] relief was counterbalanced by the unfortunate dawning of realization. I spent too much time contemplating the issue. It was distracting me from what was important.

So, I decided. No more unnecessary handicaps. Aut viam inveniam aut faciam. My initial path was [...] clearly [...] impeded. I made a new one. Some minor challenges aside, it was the only right choice.

Calvin & Cash

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[...] Thank you. You've given me a lot to think about. Not that I didn't already, but it feels less directionless.

It sounds difficult.

Calvin & Cash

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I tried to be as general as possible. So it would be [...] at least remotely applicable. You're moving away from something I

It was [...] It was [...] It was fine. I don't want to be hyperbolic. There was a solution, I took it, and some of my problems resolved. Relative to, say, famine, it was a non-issue. In the scale of my life, it was [...] a challenge.

[...] If you know already, it's much easier. I can tell you what to do next. If you're still [...] confronting the issue, there are steps you can take to illuminate [...] yourself, but it's essentially a matter of self-scrutiny. Which is unfortunate.