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[Warded to Bash]
How about that assembly, huh?

[Warded Bash]
So

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Hey

[Warded to the Chickabros]
Requesting tips for talking to your significant other about

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Soooooooooooooo

[Warded to Zach]
Do you know how many people die from embarrassment-related heart complications, annually? I can't find the actual numbers

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Help

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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[Warded to Bash]
You know, I was talking to my cat and

[Warded to Zach]
Think I'm dying.

[Warded to Chloe]
Hey this is a really inappropriate question and you know what I'm just going to stop myself right there

[Warded to Juniors]
To whoever is the second most out of shape person in our year, I have good news: you're probably about to become superlative.

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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[Warded Private]
Wow. Productive. Okay. Chill.

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Have fun making balloon animals, yesterday?

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not [...] really?

~~not that~~ ~~i mean~~ ~~wait, is thi~~ not that they weren't impressively constructed balloon animals?

i just [...] okay, correct me if i'm wrong here, but like - those were not inexpensive condoms. because this school is a fucking ridiculous institution for rich people that have too much money to spend on fucking charmed contraceptives that do magic nonsense. but, like, you can get actual balloons for animal and tiara construction. for MAYBE two dollars at party city? and. like that's a whole BAG of them. and they~~'re also maybe not covered in lu~~ come in variety packs. for different colors. and aren't translucent. not that translucent isn't a valid artistic choice, i guess?

it's [...] a [...] waste?.

monetarily speaking. ~~because it's not l~~ ~~i don't mean that in~~

Oh [...] Yeah. I see your point. I mean, regular balloons probably come in more versatile shapes and sizes, too? And regular balloons would be more appropriate for [...] like [...] general use? [.........] ~~Oh my god. Stay on target.~~

So [...] I take it [...] you didn't [...] donate yours to the festive rubber giraffe pot?

i'm pretty sure that the animal-shaping ones are those like [...] cylindrical shaped ones? so that you can twist them a bunch and they don't explode. so. i mean, not the [...] wrong shape. for the task. but. [...] still. ~~jesus h christ~~

nah. might need to [...] set a fire without a wand or a lighter or matches or [...] dry sticks and a rock? (sources required) in the future.

~~I have miscalculated. Horribly. I'm~~ [...] Right. The regular balloons are still not [...] magical [...] expensive [...] condoms. Like you said [...] there are better options. [...] Monetarily speaking.

~~I kept mine, too.~~ I ~~Didn't throw mine~~ ~~But that's not really why I~~ ~~I wanted to~~ [...] Yeah, you never know when we might need to burn the forest down to save the lives of our peers. [...] It got me thinking, too, tho.

it's just [...] that's a lot of money. to waste. on [...] balloon giraffes.

maybe that's the strangers' greatest weakness? condom fires. [...] oh ~~oh?~~ um ~~thinking ab~~ ~~shit~~ ~~i used to be good at talking about this shit but i'm sort of realizing that maybe that was because i wasn't really t~~ ~~get it the fuck together, guppy~~

yeah? specific thoughts or general thoughts?

Oh [...] For sure. Yeah. Absolutely. ~~Totally~~

Between the flour and condom fires, these things are weird.

[...]

Um ~~I'm not sure~~ ~~Do you~~ ~~I just w~~ ~~It's~~ I'm [...] It's

[........]

God, I'm sorry. I'm being an idiot. I don't [...] This is hard. But, I wanted to talk to you about, you know, ~~what~~ [...] where we are [...] on that.

no!

no, you're [...] it's fine. i'm just ~~pacing~~ ~~having a nerv~~ ~~i can't call my sister and so nobody's telling me w~~ it's fine. we're fine.

i'm [...] okay. um. i can't say that i [...] haven't thought about it. but. not in a [...] i ain't in any rush if that's [...] unless that's [...]

okay, no. clear responses. ~~right~~ ~~deep breath, focus, actual sentences~~ it's not something that i haven't thought about. i have, i've [...] thought about it. a bit. but i'm not in a rush to get there. i'm good with [...] happy with? where we are and, i mean, if that [...] if we get there that's [...] okay? but we don't GOT to or nothing. ~~if you aren't~~ ~~if you are?~~

~~is that th~~ ~~does that ma~~ i don't know if i'm saying this right? sorry for [...] crossing everything out seventeen times.

No. No. It's okay. You're fine. It makes sense. I'm sorry to put you on the spot like that. That [...] I was just thinking, after the assembly, [...] it got stuck in my head. And I thought [...] it was important to talk about.

But, [...] Okay. I [...] I don't think about it a lot. Or, I didn't. But, I have been. And, I know that [...] ~~eventually, I want to~~ ~~be with~~ ~~sleep~~ do [...] ~~things?~~ ~~Criminy~~ [...] You are the one I want to [...] eventually explore that stuff with? [...] Oh man, that sounds completely dorky. But, it's true. When we're both ready, tho. No rush. Like you said. I like how we are. Not in a stationary way? But [...] I'm comfortable with you. Does that make sense? I know we'll get there, and ~~if you ever~~ if there's ever anything you want to do, [...] you know, I'm [...] open?

you didn't [...] y'know, you're SUPPOSED to be able to ask me shit like that. it's not putting me on the spot. it's [...] talking. and it IS important. to talk.

i just [...] you know me, i'm bad without direction if i don't know where i'm going? i had to maybe talk to the air ~~and scare the shit out of aust~~ first.

but we're [...] it's you, for me. so. whenever that is? no rush - but whenever, that's how it's gonna be. i don't mind if it gets there quick or it takes a long time, cause i'm gonna be here anyway. with you. so we can [...] whatever? and if anybody wants to try anything, we just ask? cause [...] i mean, i'm pretty sure that anything you're gonna want is something i'm gonna want.

I [...] was making myself sick over it. And [...] I really didn't have to, did I? Knew you'd be okay with it, in the back of my head. And [...] I'm glad I asked. I'm glad that we talked.

Yeah, I [...] kind of guessed. ~~Which is why~~ ~~I'm sorry I~~ ~~I just couldn't~~[...] I just don't want to cause you stress.

We're on the same page. I [...] when I think about it too much, I don't think I'm ready. But, sometimes, I feel like I am. I [...] I think we should definitely keep [...] talking about it? Just [...] so we know. Open dialogue or whatever. We can talk in person next time. Promise I won't give myself an asthma attack over it. And [...] we'll figure it out. ~~I'm glad I'm figuring this stuff out with you. That's super dorky. Too dorky.~~ ~~ugh~~ [...] You're something really special.

course not. i'm not gonna [...] you don't HAVE to worry about me. like, at all. i'm kind of a sure thing, dude.

~~it's just that i can't see if i~~ austin definitely needed to hear me mumbling incoherent phrases, it's cool. keeps him on his toes or something.

i kinda figure that it's pretty rare that i know what i'm doing in GENERAL. so this is just a [...] bigger version of every other day? i want a lot of stuff, but that don't mean i'm ready for all the stuff at once. and this way was fine. if it's easier to talk like this, that's cool. i don't mind or nothing. we can not have asthma attacks. and write words. we got this. [...] i'm whatever. but we're pretty good.

I'm glad. But, I also want you to know, [...] it goes both ways. I'm here for you, too. No matter what. Long haul. So, if there ever is something, you can talk to me.

[...] Oops. I'd say tell Austin I'm sorry, but, um, he probably doesn't need to know who/what you were mumbling about.

I get the feeling that [...] I don't know. Eventually we'll both just know. And, I mean, for me, writing was a good start, but, I want to talk to you face-to-face, too. Need to be able to say things without freaking out about them. ~~And, I know that you~~ [...] You are smart and kind and funny and one of the most unique people I've ever met and you're my favorite person in the world. One out of seven billion. That's not whatever. Not even close. And we're [...] exactly what I want.

i know. you kinda got my big, stupid one in already. [...] and, hey, you did yours WAY faster than i did? and it also wasn't stupid. so we're batting a thousand today.

i think we were just, y'know, having parallel crises.

i'm never gonna NOT want to talk to you. about pretty much anything. [...] i mean, i'm gonna do a worse job with some topics? but i still WANT to. even if it's just cause i like to hear what you think about things. [...] it's not [...] i get embarrassed when you say things like that, but not cause i don't like to hear them. it's just weird? to hear them. especially because you're [...] to me, you're amazing. you're clever and funny and i like the way your brain works and if i'm gonna be bad at things, i want to be bad at them with you.

Going to celebrate this victory in communication by eating a load of candy in a way that does not at all resemble stress eating.

Tis the season, I guess. Ferbruary is a curse.

Sometimes, it's hard getting over the hurdles my brain puts in place, but [...] I always feel better once I've talked to you, you know? Even if we both [...] fumble, sometimes. It's fine. You've always been [...] I know you'll always try to understand. And I'd rather actively be bad at things with you than not be anything at all. So, yeah, we'll keep talking. [...] And, I've got bad news for you. I'm going to keep embarrassing you, because I love you and it's too much effort to keep that to myself.

it’s not stress eating anymore. it’s relief eating. which is definitely healthier.

these things happen. and they bring us closer together as people.

you make everything [...] still. like i’m more steady and sure and okay. i’m more okay. and fhat’s you. you make me better. i might trip myself up with words or with weird, out of place thoughts but you don’t. you don’t make me feel anything less than competent and [...] better. i always want to talk to you. [...] even if i maybe wish it wasn’t about me because it kind of makes me want to jump off of a tall building or maybe stick my hands in my ears. [...] but i love you too. the most.

Oh, yeah. Much more heart healthy.

If there is one lesson I have learned at Gooseberry Alternative High School it is that nothing forms bonds like shared trauma.

[...] I ~~God, I~~ [...] ~~How can I say~~ [...] You know what? That's [...] I just [...] I want to be that for you. Always. ~~Like, forever. For real. I want to~~ You're always going to be [...] like the sun, for me. [...] And if you want we can talk about other guys that jump off tall buildings, instead. Like Spider-Man.

medical science at its best.

mutual trauma is the foundation that most of my relationships are built on.

very bright and guaranteed to cause eventual blindness if stared at directly for too long. sounds accurate. [...] spider-man has the advantage of a built-in bungee chord. and is an outlier in the ‘people that jump off of buildings’ category on jeopardy. [...] and, um. you will be. i know it.

Hey [...] I'm glad I'm doing this with you. The figuring stuff out. The messing stuff up. Just, the being together. The whole thing.

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