idk i think it's more complicated than that but i don't wanna get weird and wax poetic about myself bc this ain't ebonhide and we don't do that shit here. it ain't about being an asshole or not being an asshole. it's about being soft or not being soft. i ain't trying to be soft. you're figuring out your gay shit, but i ain't never had a problem with that because my society and my culture on that compound didn't ever put emphasis on who i oughta wanna fuck. so that's not my problem. but it put emphasis on being hard or soft. so you're working through your gay shit, and i'm working through figuring out what type of person i wanna be.
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does it matter if you're a good person or not if everybody thinks you're not? does it matter if you're straight or not if everybody thinks you're straight? how much of our reality is directly reliant on how the rest of the world thinks we are? And if that's what really matters, then shouldn't it matter just as much what we make other people think we are than who we really are? Making everybody believe you're an asshole because that's what you want them to believe oughta make you an asshole, even if you rescue kittens from trees in your off time and shit. which i don't. But that shit's a reflection of who we are. So I think it's more complicated than not accepting that people got layers to them. I already knew that. but like i'm already going on my self discovery journey. I been going on it for weeks now. That's the only reason I even signed up for that dumb potion experiment. I been discovering new shit bout me for weeks now.
I think for you to come to terms with the shit you're going through, you're going to need to go on a self discovery journey too. You need to jump outta the plane to figure out where you're gonna land, and if you figure out that you gotta fuck with dudes for the rest of your life and only check out girls from afar because that's what's best for you, then that's okay too.
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ok i'll stop being awkward.
Want me to interrogate Miguel bout him swerving you?
Re: Dia & Quentin
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does it matter if you're a good person or not if everybody thinks you're not? does it matter if you're straight or not if everybody thinks you're straight? how much of our reality is directly reliant on how the rest of the world thinks we are? And if that's what really matters, then shouldn't it matter just as much what we make other people think we are than who we really are? Making everybody believe you're an asshole because that's what you want them to believe oughta make you an asshole, even if you rescue kittens from trees in your off time and shit. which i don't. But that shit's a reflection of who we are. So I think it's more complicated than not accepting that people got layers to them. I already knew that. but like i'm already going on my self discovery journey. I been going on it for weeks now. That's the only reason I even signed up for that dumb potion experiment. I been discovering new shit bout me for weeks now.
I think for you to come to terms with the shit you're going through, you're going to need to go on a self discovery journey too. You need to jump outta the plane to figure out where you're gonna land, and if you figure out that you gotta fuck with dudes for the rest of your life and only check out girls from afar because that's what's best for you, then that's okay too.
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ok i'll stop being awkward.
Want me to interrogate Miguel bout him swerving you?