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[phin]

I am fucking exhausted.


[Sofia]
F

[Sofia]
What's wrong with
What in the world

[Sofia]

[Sofia]
I dunno if we ought to do this anymore. Whatever it is.

Sorry.

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[sheepish]

Nobody would fault you for going to bed early.

[phin]

Would be useless in classes anyway.

[sheepish]

Heaps of people are skipping if you want to curl up with some chamomile and go to sleep. I can get you the DADA notes if you want.

[phin]

Got my kettle on already. Predictable.

Would you? Owe you one, mate.

[sheepish]

Thought you might.

Yeah, no worries! Take it easy.

[holdmyearrings]

Wanna give that whole foxy naptime idea a go?

[phin]

Let's hibernate.

[wholegrain]

i have a lot of blankets!!
and pillows!

[threatens]

It's a goddamn fuckin mess.

[phin]

Yeah. These fucking books, mate. Might shut mine away till after the New Moon.

[graysanatomyforkids]

New Moon's a good start. All fucked.

[wholegrain]

does anyone want to do a Thing tomorrow for the new moon?

board games
naptime
build a ladder to the moon

the world is really our oyster

[holdmyearrings]

Are we talking a literal ladder or some sort of spiritual planey thing??????

[cygninae]

I want to play pin the prefect badge on another senior dude.

[lachlangalbraith]

Understandable. [...] Sometimes focusing on the routine things helps. In my experience. But if you miss class, I'm sure we can cover you on notes and things.

[...]

[Phin]

Can I do anything, mate? I

[phin]

Just can't care about it today.

[Lach]
I'll be a fine.
Bit off is all.

You're all right, yeah?

[lachlangalbraith]

[...] Aye. I can cover you for Transfiguration, then.

[Phin]

Because of S All right. Well. I'll be here if you need me.

Yeah. Dodged this mess. Unless you'd count a few of the wee ones making fun of my boyfr

[phin]

That's well kind of you.

[Lach]
Thanks. Think I'll just be off to bed for now.
Haven't been keeping myself well anyway.

Good.

Phin/Sofia

[sovain]

What the fuck
Are you fucking serious

So, that's it?
I can like you, I can be a raging jealous cunt and not want you with anyone else, but holy fuck is me loving you a HUGE difference! This changes EVERYTHING, right? For fucks sake, Phin, you wanted to run away with me but this..THIS is too much? Fuck me, I am sorry I care a lot about you to the point where, like, I just want to be with you and make you happy and shit. Fuck.

Right, well.. great. Dodged a bullet then.

Phin/Sofia

[phin]

Do you really not see how it makes a difference, Sofia? Love's not a fucking laugh.

No one ever means it when they say that's all they want, even when they know who they're saying it about. And you don't bloody know me.

Yeah. I reckon you have.

Phin/Sofia

[sovain]

Did you see me fucking laughing?? I was losing my fucking mind because I was afraid that this would happen.

I know you treat me like a fucking angel even though I am utter trash. You're artistic and funny, and so fucking smart. You care about me, like really fucking care.. or so I thought. That's all I needed to know to fall for you, obviously. As someone who has never had deep scary feelings like this before... I don't just want to be with you, I really fucking need you, okay? You make me so happy, like, I can function like a normal person and I can go out again without panicking over ghosts and shit. I don't know how to put it in words for you other than to say I love you, okay? I know I love you. And it's ok that you don't love me back, I know how fucking hard it is because I am going through it right now. If you don't think you can ever feel that for me, I obviously don't want to hold you down and make you miserable, but... I don't know. You do you, I guess.

Phin/Sofia

[phin]

Phin/Sofia

[phin]

[a lot later -- 1am]

You're not utter trash. I'll never understand how you've come to think of yourself that way.
It's not true.

I'm only funny cos nothing's ever really real to me.
But you are, so I care, and I dunno how.

I'm afraid to prop up my love against yours.

You've never made me miserable for a moment. Not really.
Sorry I've made you.

Everything else I could write is stupid.

[addytives]

It's been a v long day.

[phin]

It has.