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I'm pretty sure we're going to remember more than just that.

For example, all I remember when I look at it is how shitty I was every time I won.

Also the combo for the lock we used to have on there because we scratched that into the bottom of the box, like a couple dumbasses.

We were ten! What the fuck did we know.

[...] If you're trying to say something, Ro, just fuckin say it. "Winning isn't everything"? Like I haven't heard that shit before.

It's not like I'm trying to teach you a lesson or anything, I just [...] I don't know.

That belt is everything that's wrong with us, and every time I look at it I want to destroy it and just forget about all the tantrums I threw because you beat me at some game we just fucking made up or how many times I just straight up cheated because that dumb thing was more important to me than you were.

If you want it, you can have it, I just thought it would be more cathartic to burn the damn thing.

And what the fuck do we do when we're not doing that shit? Like... yeah, I stopped trying to fight you with school, and it got better. I hated trying to get honour roll. I hated busting my ass for subjects I didn't understand, just because you wouldn't drop the class. I hated reviewing our fuckin report cards with Mom and Dad. ~~I hated always feeling stupid next to you~~

[...]

I fuckin hate fighting you. But I don't know if I actually hate fighting.

This is a serious question. Is there anything you actually enjoy?

Because I know I hate fighting. With you, with my cabin, with people who are acting like assholes, with almost anyone who's been unlucky enough to think they were my friend. But I know I hate looking weak or stupid or not in control more than I hate fighting. And I'm starting to feel like it's because I don't actually like anything, I just hate things in varying degrees.

[...]

We don't have to destroy the belt.

But I'm still tired of looking at it.

Quidditch. I love Quidditch. And flying, yeah, but Quodpot is Dad's game, and fuck Dad. Why? Does it seem like I don't love it? Just because I fuckin lose my shit and yell at people over it?

[...]

I'm fuckin sick of it too. You want me to walk into Ribbonfin for this? 'Cause I'm warning you, if Davenport wants to start shit with me, I'll fight her.

I mean, it did seem like it was causing you, like, a little more stress than enjoyment lately. And like your blood pressure was starting to concern me.

Do dirty looks count as starting shit? Because she might do that. Most everyone else is just moping. But I could go over there, I don't care.

This is gonna make me sound like a dumbass... but I thought Quidditch captain was gonna be easier than this, you know?

Ha. If Ribbonfin didn't have you, there wouldn't be a backbone in sight. Start the fire, Stoker. I'm headed over there and I'm bringing this fuckin stupid box with me.

Was it the pressure or the people that made it harder?

Backbone, asshole, same difference. See you in a few asshole.

Hey.

[...] How's it going?

You fuckin sure you wanna ask that?

[...] Fine. Haven't punched any trees. Haven't punched anyone or thrown anyone's chair in the mud or lit anything on fire. I think that makes me a normal fuckin person now or whatever.

~~I'm such a goddamn~~ You getting swamped with practices yet?

I mean. I asked.

Hey! Good job. [...] "Not punching" isn't the same thing as "totally fine" though.

We're starting tomorrow.

Yeah. Sorry. Guess you did.

I'm fuckin pissed off, Decourt. I feel like a shit captain. And I know you fuckin hate this stuff, so we don't have to talk about it. It's not why I messaged you.

Gray's a hell of a Seeker, but Ebonhide's got the better team. Especially with Fiori at the helm. Now that I've seen how he works with you guys... [...] I'm betting on you. K, that's all.

You're not a shit captain. Your team's been playing better every match. And you haven't lost a game since November. Reid just messed up. And you still might win the season.

Oh, are we done talking now?

Come the fuck on. Hale would have to be an even shittier Seeker than she's been all year to let the Snitch be caught before you can rack up the points.

...Not if you don't want to be done.

Yeah, but shit happens, and you know Thorn's not going to let us run up goals on each other or play forever if that's what it comes down to. I'm not planning on it or anything. But. You know.

You can talk to me about shit if you want. I don't mind.

Yeah. [...] I don't wanna win like this. It feels like bullshit. Like barely a game at all. Maybe that's what I'm most pissed about. You know? If "shit happens" with you and Azurcrest and it's Coppertale on top at the end, it'll feel like... I dunno. Fuck, why do we play such a fuckin stupid game.

~~I want to talk to you all the time~~ Do you wanna talk about shit now?

I don't feel great about it either. We only really get the shot at passing you guys up because of shit happening.

Yeah. Now. And whenever. [...] And if you don't want to talk about your shit right this second I actually could use some advice.

Score twenty goals next game. That plus the Snitch will shut everyone up.

Go for it. But I gotta warn you, I'm a pretty shit study buddy.

I'll score twenty goals all by myself and drop out of school to play in the World Cup.

Oh don't worry. It's Quidditch advice. I'd never make you give me school advice.

I always knew those boys were holding you back.

I know I roasted myself first, but now I'm kinda hurt by the lack of faith. ~~I make Reid study~~ K, enough foreplay. What is it?

"You gotta pass the quaffle to us, Clem. It's a team sport." Such whiners.

You don't really wanna hear about my book report anyway

Zoey wants to sit out the Hogwarts game so Levi gets the chance to play for the scouts and I don't know if I should let her.

Huh.

[...] You're a better team with Zoey and Jeffy. Not saying that me or Kramer are garbage, especially with all the practice we've put in with the team, but it's different dynamic, you know? And Hogwarts does not fuck around with Quidditch. You want your best on the front line.

On the other hand... if Valentine doesn't want in, you might be fucked anyway. Nothing worse than a player whose heart isn't in it. Kramer, he wants that shit for sure. He won't shut up about how badly he needs to make pro. But Valentine... Like, what's her deal? Because she's good. If I had to bet on who I think could make it to pro leagues, Valentine would be on the list.

[...] I have another idea, but I dunno if you're gonna like it.

She cares about it more than she lets on, but she's not going to try to go pro after school. I don't know if that's what she wants to do, but she's got her life plan and, you know. Not really my business.

What's the other idea?

Bench Key for Kramer. Jeffy won't argue with you. Hell, he'd probably say he's happy to help out an Azurcrest teammate. And if he's hurt underneath it all, then he's got the next two years to play Hogwarts.

No offense to Key (I mean hell, he's not the fuckin reserve here), but I'd pick Valentine over him any day. I think you would too. This way, Kramer gets his shot and Valentine keeps her head in the game. Then you've got a month to work out your team dynamic. A bit less, if you're focused on Ebonhide.

[...] I'm gonna think about it. And I'd ask him, not tell him. Zoey volunteered. But [...] that was before this game. I wouldn't blame her for just changing her mind but she seems committed to the idea of letting him play.

And I want Levi to get as much time playing for the scouts as he can, too, but.

I want to win more.

It kinda comes down to Zoey, yeah? Like if her heart's set on Levi playing, then you gotta bench her. She'll be divided. You can't have anyone who isn't gonna be 100% focused.

But if this is just self-sacrificing Ribbonfin bullshit where they always gotta act like they're responsible for everyone even though no one fuckin asked them, then keep her. Maybe she wants you to tell her no. But I mean, I can't read Valentine worth shit.

maybe she's just nice

Bullshit. I've never met a single nice person in my life.

I can't believe you'd calll me not nice

If you were really nice, you wouldn't like me as much as you do.

Oh well that sounds boring

Shit, Decourt. Did you just admit I'm not boring?

I will go as far as to say you are fun OR interesting but not both. You have to pick

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